littleflowerlei

Oh god I'm so tired...

all week I've been running on empty, and I'm looking foreward to going to sleep tonight. I'm so tired that it's crazy. I'm mad at my friend Ed because he was supposed to be helping me on our Astronomy project, but I ended up doing all the work. It's like, I know his girlfriend just had a baby, and that he has his senior project--but that doesn't mean he can leave me to do all the work. My mom helped me and did what he didn't do, thankfully.

I didn't get my geometry homework done and I'm too tired to care. I'm seriously about to die, I'm so tired. I'm going as Sally for Halloween, which is cool. I'm just worried that I'll be the only one dressed up for Matt's party. It's like, him and Sam are the only ones I'll know there, and Matt is the only one I know is dressing up. Sam might be, I'll ask him tomorrow. I'm worried that I won't have anyone to talk to, because a majority of Matt's friends I don't know.

*Yawn* So tired...so this is the best you're getting tonight. I'll report back tomorrow night after the party.

Good Night and have a pleasant Tomorrow!

Well, today sucked worse than yesturday did.

First, Mr. G (My photography teacher) got mad at me because I forgot what to do in the Dark Room for a minute. But it wasn't like I didn't figure it out later. He didn't need to yell at me, it was really mean! Jesus...

Then I dropped all my stuff in my binder on the floor by  my history teacher's desk. It all went flying out of my binder when I was looking for my Ch 11 notes, and I shouted "CRAP" really loud and got everyone's attention. XD my mom told me that, next time, I should start scurrying to pick my things up muttering "I don't like people touching my things...my things...don't touch..." XD that'll be hilarious!

The last thing wasn't nessisarily bad, but it made me feel bad. Robyn's going out with someone now, and it just reminded me of the fact that I have been alone for the last 7 or 8 months. Oh well, I'm better off on my own anyway. I can spend my weekends working on my manuscript instead of trying to fend off some horney guy from trying to touch me. Besides, my kind (writers) belong alone. It's more stimulating.

Oh! My ex and his girlfriend broke up because she's an alcoholic. Heath had told me that, and I was like "What? Can't he ever be happy?" all sarcastic like. And he was like "Well, he told me that you had it coming."

How the hell did I have it coming? I was always coming up with excuses for him when he did something stupid, I was always there for him when he was upset and needed someone to talk to, and I was the one who insisted he go to the doctors after he was in a mild car accident to make sure he was OK. I called him a dick once and all of a sudden "I had it coming" oh boo-f'ing-ho. He called me stupid and uncreativemore times than I could count, but does he bring that up? Hell no, it makes him look bad.

So that was today, it sucked. Good night and I'll try to have a pleasant tomorrow.

Well, today started out bad. I wore a coat I didn't like because I thought it was raining outside. It was a goldenrod colored raincoat that just refused to stay tied around my waist. Becuase of that, it would fall down and give me that "Skirt being pulled down" feeling. I hate it when that happens, and my Jack Jacket usually stays tied around my waist a majority of the time. Coincidentally, the raincoat wasn't even that warm, and it was freezing!

I broke Sam's necklace and proceeded to find out that he had a girlfriend (although, I must admit, I had my suspicions). I was trying to get his attention, so I bet him he couldn't pick me up. He lifted me over his shoulder and proceeded to carry me like that for a distance until he dropped me. I don't know if that was an accident or not, but if it was then I guess I won the bet. I feel kind of bad for breaking the necklace, and not so much that he had a girlfriend. I think it was because I had talked myself out of liking him sucessfully.

I was thinking of getting a job at Barns and Noble, but if I did I wouldn't have time to work on my manuscript. I'm having a hard enough time getting it done with just school. This weekend won't be good for working on it because I'm going to the Nightmare Before Christmas in 3-D with my mom on Friday, The Rocky Horror Picture Show thing with Robyn and staying over at her sister's house with her afterwords. I think I could just bring a notebook and write in it while I'm over there, yeah, that might work.

Yesturday I shot my architecture photos with my friend Heath, who proceeded to tell me that my friend Ed and his girlfriend Mystiqe finally had their baby! It's a girl, I can't wait to see pictures of it, Heath told me it was really cute! I simply must remember to ask him tomorrow what they named her.

So, basically, today sucked eggs. The only good thing that happened today was that my friend Tiffany told me about her plan. She has a class with my ex-boyfriend (who stomped on my heart with spikey cleets) and he pissed her off somehow so she's going to get revenge! I can't wait for it! I'm proud of her for that, actually, because I want nothing but unhappiness for him. Esspecially after they way he treated me like a bag of nothing.

So, that's today (and part of yesturday) see you tomorrow!

As someone who currently has a secret crush at school, I think it's better to keep your feelings a secret. You might end up being hurt, and with them being a secret, your free to try and talk yourself out of them.

Today, my friend Robyn told me that she was having a Halloween party the day after Halloween, and I might go as a Gothic Alice in Wonderland. My friend Matt is having a party on Halloween and I want to go to that one too. Man, I'm gonna be busy that weekend!

Matt and I made plans to get together some afternoon and take a walk. He plans to wear his tuxedo, top hat, and carry his cane around while I wear my really pretty knee-length pink dress with a lace collar, lace sleeves, knee-high socks, and my black mary-janes. We want to get weird looks from people, but we can't figure out how to get my dress out of the house without my mom freaking out that I'm actually wearing it somewhere. x.x His friend Sam is helping us.

I'm actually kind of pathedic, because I still like Sam. I had a big crush on him a while back, and had tried to talk myself out of it. I thought I had succeeded, but I realized today that I was wrong. I know how wrong it is for me to like him, because I know he doesn't like me back. It's probably better if I just continue on the way I've been going; I can't get hurt this way. There's no shame in desiring from afar, is there? Besides, last time I openly liked with someone, I ended up getting hurt really bad. I'm not saying that I'm not ready to go back out, because I am, I just...I don't want to get hurt again like last time.

Robyn and her ex-boyfriend Andrew are friends again after he kept telling her she looks like a boy. She says they're just friends, but I don't know. Their relationship is complicated, and I personally think it's better to stay out of it. They've been on and off again for a while, and they were even "Friends with Benefits" for a while before deciding to go back out yet again. I think they might end up back together, despite what she says.

I'm finally doing the scene I've been looking foreward to in my manuscript, and have thought of another thing that is both fun and interesting to  do. I was wondering the whole ride home from school today if it would fit into the book I was doing; and, after thinking about what I know of the series thus far, I decided that there would be no better place to put it. I just need to hammer out a few details and afterwords yay! But I have a long way to go before I get there, so there's plenty of time to work those details out.

Well, that's all for today. Have a nice day and a pleasant tomorrow!

LittleFlowerLei

Today was my Princess day!
It started off very strangely actually. I had a dream that my mom gave me a Prince LaCroix doll, and I guarded it with my life. It was about the size of a ken doll, but looked exactly like Sebastian LaCroix from Vampire The Masquerade: Bloodlines. I was really sad to wake up and realize that, not only do I not have one, they don't exist. It made me want one ALL day! it looked so much like him that it was uncanny! Man, I wish they existed.
Later, I took a very relaxing bubble bath earlier with lavender smelling bubble bath stuff. It was sooo relaxing! It was like soaking in luxuries. I pretended to be a princess for as long as my bath lasted, completely enjoying it. I played 'Keen on Boys' from the Marie Antoinette soundtrack, and that made me a little sleepy.
Then I washed my hair with my lavender smelling shampoo and conditioner. My shampoo was one of those really cool ones that can be used as bubble bath stuff, shampoo, and body wash at the same time. I never thought I'd get much use of it when I got it, but I ended up using it a lot! 
And to finish it off, I sprayed the air around me with lavender fabreeze. I'm crazy about the smell of Lavender. I need to get around to working on my manuscript again, but it counts because I wrote in it earlier. Not as much as I would have wanted, but I still did so it counts. Now I'm just sleepy and my eyes hurt a little. I don't know why they've been hurting so much lately, they never used to hurt this much when I looked at the computer, but now...
Oh well! 
Have a nice day and a pleasant tomorrow!
LittleFlowerLei